February 2012
20 posts
UGH
What is wrong with me?! I feel this is a routine but something I won’t ever get used to. I want to stay in bed and sleep for a long time, but I already told my coworkers I’d hang out with them today. So if I stay home, I’d be in bed all day. If I go out, I’ll spend money like crazy. I’m either trying to run away from feeling down by sleeping or filling that void by...
Old-fashioned Kind of Blog
I woke up at 9:15a. My assistant manager scheduled me at 9:30a. I was only three minutes late. CrAzY. I was a zombie for that 5-hour shift so I promised myself I’d sleep once I got home. Instead, Sistaafriend Ryan called and we ended up having a late lunch at California Pizza Kitchen. And someway, somehow, I ended up getting boba with Alejah and then finding things (we weren’t in dire...
Happy, but confused — I think this is an okay place to be. It’s better than being sad.
Secretly recording Jessie taking her online,...
WHY THE HELL ARE YOU ALWAYS HERE?! THIS ISN’T YOUR HOUSE. GO BACK TO YOUR OWN.
No matter what, I will always have the same, infinite thoughts running in the back of my mind at all times. What did I do this time? What could I have done differently to avoid this? Was it me? And when I get around to finding the answers to my questions, I beat myself up. This is what I did. I could have done this instead of that. It was me. I wish I liked myself even a little.
gabebondoc:
Here’s a random little snippet of a...
My coworker said it would help to talk about it and suggested some group meetings, but group sessions never helped me at the slightest. I could barely muster up the courage to talk comfortably in front of a classroom full of people — how would I be able to talk about my insecurities in a circle of people that I don’t know? I know this is what friends are for and the good ones...
Dear _____,
Talking with you for an hour and fifteen minutes was more effective than the many sessions with the two therapists I had in the past, combined. You’re not even a therapist, and I only knew you for that hour and fifteen minutes. Since you said you saw who you were before when you looked at me, I hope to get to where you are in life now. You really are an older sister figure to...
January 2012
25 posts
Mild Rant
Not to be a bitch, but if you’re sick, please keep your distance. I’m tired of catching people’s sickness and people coughing practically in my face like it’s not rude. At least have common courtesy and cover your mouth with your arm or something when you cough or sneeze. I’m not trying to stay clear of being in anyone’s company, but at least be at reasonable...
I think I’ve mentioned before that I really hate when I get woken up. Especially when I’m trying to get some sleep in for an early day at work tomorrow.
I am guilty of re-reading text messages.
I gained two pounds in one week. I’m like…depressed. LOL. #AnnoyingGirl
*NSYNC - The Two of Us
I think about you far more than I care to admit.
Mini Rant
Honestly, it kinda sucks how “friends” automatically assume that I’m busy and don’t bother to hit me up when everyone’s hanging out. And I’m not trying to be a little bitch about it, but I can say whatever and vent however I want heeaa!
I understand not EVERYONE has to hang out at the same time EVERY time. I really don’t care. But it sucks to hear from a...
If reality didn’t have to make sense, I’d pack my things and take the next flight to a state like North Carolina and live there for at least a year.
Tomorrow,
I have a doctor appointment. No matter what, I am always nervous.
I hate when I’m waiting for a response to a text, and my breathing becomes uneven from anticipation. Then when I get the response I expected but didn’t want, I feel my stomach tie in a knot and force my body into wanting to get into a fetal position (only because I’m already in bed). Then I torture myself by wanting to be alone. I feel like calling a friend up would be too much...
December 2011
31 posts
I helped a “_____ Lopez” for a good amount of time at work today — enough to fall in love with him. LOL. Petty Officer Lopez.
Goodbye, 2011!
Another year gone! It was definitely a better year than the couple years before, COMBINED. I’m not saying I never had bitch-fit moments but I’m not trying to complain and make those off days the reputation of 2011. So along with cherishing 2011 moments in my head, I also have things to get off my chest so I can let go and move on. So I will do just that.
1) I really hope your mind...
“I’m a boomerang — doesn’t matter how you throw me
I turn...”
– Gavin DeGraw
I just want to be happy.
Good night.